You can't be a spinster at 25. right?

I don’t want to be one of those bloggers who writes 10 post about how hurt she was about a recent breakup and her day to day emotions… those kind of talks are reserved for friends after a few drinks.

You don’t want to hear about my personal realization I had about my 2 ½ month relationship with this boy or what I’ve learned in the 2 ½ weeks since he told me he wanted to break up.

You also don’t care that I was proud of myself for not contacting him after the break-up.  Or that on Friday I broke and sent him a text after a few drinks and that I didn’t expect a text back and when he sent me one on Sunday morning my stomach automatically turned upside down.

That is all old news. 

What I have been doing. I reactivated my OkCupid profile.

It took me 10 minutes to remember why I deactivated it in the first place.

But I’m trying to embrace it, sure I have yet to message a single potential guy and I’m really just using it as a way to get movie recommendations. (just downloaded 5 new ones)

But I have hope. 

A recent conversation I had with my younger sister, a sister who is the only family member I talk to about my love/sex/dating life.

Her: you should just pay the $20 a month for dating site.

Me: I’m debating it… I wonder if I could convince Dad to pay for it. 

Her: why would he pay for yours and not mine?

Me: Well our two other sisters are married.  Dad thinks you are a serial dater and I’m pretty certain dad is convinced that I’m never getting married.  So yes, he would give me money to join an online dating site.  

Oh, and I’m his favorite.

Yes, I’m pretty certain my dad thinks I’m a Spinster… a spinster at 25?*

Each time I talk to him he seem overly concerned about me. 

How’s your health? Are you happy? You are far away from home, be sure to take care of yourself.

I know he means well, but I tend to avoid telling him things because every bad thing that happens to me seems so much worse in his eyes.  (I guess that is love or something)

I imagine I’m going to start embracing the tactics my mom preferred…. Where you don’t tell family members about a boy you are dating until 6 months into it.

But anyways: what is new in my life.  Not a whole lot.  Hopefully dates will come about, but I have to start embracing the online dating process.  And I’m bad at that. 

I’m better at meeting guys in public spaces, but I haven’t found a good public space in my new neighborhood to hang out in.  

It really shouldn’t be this hard for a cute single girl (like myself) to find an awesome man to date.  

-K


* I don't actually think I'm a Spinster... I have full faith that I'll eventually get married.   Maybe not in the next couple of years, but sometime. 

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But lets be honest here: he doesn't deserve to know that I'm having an awesome time. 
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And a random music video to make this post a little more all over the place.

I'm indifferent about the song... but I absolutely love this video. 

and plus... Music Monday is kind-of  a thing. right?